I’m sorry for disappearing. Everything is still here, I think. I just panicked and needed to escape – I’ve hurt someone and I thought deleting everything would fix it but it didn’t. All that happened is I hurt myself.

I’m still hurting.

I don’t think I’m going to be online much over the next week or so – mainly because the bills haven’t been paid and I can’t access the internet at home – but everything should be back to ‘normal’ soon enough.

And then, I’m going to talk.

If I don’t reply to comments right now, it’s because I’m out of time. But I’ll reply when I can. Please stay with me.

(eta: unfortunately I lost all of the people following the blog when I moved it, so if you want my posts to appear in your reader then you may want to refollow. Sorry about that.)

0 thoughts on “Relapse

  1. I am really shy about commenting usually. And I sincerely feel uncomfortable saying this, but I almost crashed yesterday when I didn’t find your blog (and then I did completely crash, well)! Uncomfortable. because I understand the need to have this space, and then to run from it. or have space from this space. So, well, ‘no pressure’. πŸ™‚ I’m glad you’re back!

    1. Thank you so much for commenting – I’m really sorry for just disappearing with no notice. I hope you’re doing okay now – I’ve sent you an email so you have my address in case you ever need it πŸ™‚ Thank you for understanding – it’s business as usual now!

    2. Hey – hope you get this! I got shut out of my gmail account temporarily and I haven’t been online loads recently, but I’m not ignoring you and I promise I’ll reply to your email ASAP! (I wasn’t sure if you’d want me clogging up your comments so I thought I’d just shove it in here… kind of like a secret conversation haha!) I hope you’re okay, speak soon x

      1. Hi Kim, great to hear from you. I was worried yes, if things were alright; so its a relief reading your message. hope your gmail is back on track. Haha! you can comment as and where you’d like! Even I just shifted to this city last week, so has been a ride, still settling in. Looking forward to talking more soon! Take care!

        1. I’m so glad you’re doing alright! My email is working again but my access to the internet is still pretty intermittent – I should be able to sit down and say something actually thoughtful tomorrow! (well, today – it’s 3.40am…) I hope you’re settling in okay. Speak to you shortly πŸ™‚

          1. I mean here as in the blog… All my old blogs had comments off because I was worried about what people would say. I still worry, but this is actually more fun than going it completely alone!

    1. Hey, welcome to the chaos! I’m alright thank you, I hope you are too πŸ™‚ I’m also pretty shy about commenting… I never really know what to say. I’m going to start doing it a bit more once I’m back online properly though!

    1. Thank you! I was already following yours, but I thought maybe the easiest way of letting people know that the blog had moved was to unfollow/refollow…

      …unfortunately, WordPress thinks you’re a spammer if you do that so it was a bad idea. Oops πŸ™

  2. I remember being afraid to share my name when I started and posts seemed excruciatingly personal. I’ve found others sharing far more personal information, so little by little my fears fell away as I realized what a blessing it was to have friends here that share openly – so I know I’m not the only one. The evolving that’s possible when we stick together is such a beautiful thing. Blessings to you, Debra

    1. I’m glad that you felt more comfortable over time as well. It’s so good to be able to write honestly, even if it is a bit terrifying at the same time…! But the support from others is amazing here, I’ve been blown away by how encouraging everyone is! Thank you for such a lovely comment πŸ™‚

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