Lullabye

Late night conversations, back when we needed each other more than we needed sleep.

There are many images which remain undeveloped.

We’d lay together, but not with each other. I would hang on every word you said, asking question after question just to make sure you didn’t stop talking. I wanted to hear your dreams to see if they felt the same as mine, and I wanted to know your fears so that I could offer you a cure.

You’ll never forget me, but I wanted to make sure.

I just wanted those moments. Those moments with you made me feel incredible. Those moments gave me hope and inspiration, and they still keep me going. I just don’t know whether that’s a good thing or not. I don’t know what to do about it. I’m trying not to think about it but it’s there as soon as I try to write.

Everybody else wants to be written about.

I didn’t expect anything, but I wanted too much. You occupied my mind. I got too used to you being here and I accidentally held you prisoner in here with me. Maybe we should have just stuck to visits of the conjugal kind.

The door is closed, and I’m not sure my key fits the lock. Is it even locked? I just stare at that door, wondering.

The best stories come from the things that never stood a chance.

0 comments on “Lullabye

  1. So true. The best writing is done when things are very wrong or very right. The right writings make everyone feel bad or sick, though. The wrong writings make everyone feel better somehow, and things are wrong more often.

    • I think part of the problem I have is trying to make things sound right when they’re not, so I unintentionally end up making people feel bad. It’s hard when the person you’re writing for ends up reading it and they concentrate too hard on things you say almost as an afterthought, so they don’t quite get the message that you’re trying to pass on to them. Then you have to start leaving things out or changing the message and it all ends up wrong anyway.

  2. The best stories come from the things that never stood a chance … good last line! True of farce and tragedy alike …

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    • Thank you! Your comment reminds me of one of my favourite quotes (by Horace Walpole): “The world is a comedy to those who think; a tragedy to those who feel.” I feel like I tread a path between the two.

      • I suppose tragi-comedy (Shakespeare, Chekhov, etc.) brings both sides of the brain into balance.

        • It’s a truer reflection of real life, isn’t it? Everyone knows tragedy and everyone knows comedy. And I think most people have at least one ‘what if?’ that never had a chance to happen.

          • What if … isn’t that the perfect way to begin a question? What if we weren’t allowed to ask it? What if we had to accept any old thing we were told without question? How lucky we are to be told what to do …

          • It is perfect. Problems would never be solved creatively without asking it, and second chances would never be taken. What if it never even occured to us to ask it?

  3. Sounds like someone had a profound impact on you at one point in time. Life is what it is, the people we meet, the effect they have on us, it is curious isn’t it?

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